a little work, a little networking, a little dancing - that's my day.
the lunch/networking meeting was really interesting. if nothing else, i came away with a few more books that i want to to read - 'think and grow rich' by napoleon hill and 'the seven spiritual laws of success' by deepak chopra. i've also been beating myself up a bit about not having completed a couple of the goals i set for myself last year. i realized a few things:
1) those goals did not relate to my top 4 values over the last year
and
2) my top 4 values shifted a bit over the last year because of the new company.
because of that shift, my focus has changed. i have to keep reminding myself that i only have so much time in the day, and not everything is going to fit in. i'm going to go back to making small changes and, now that i don't have to kill myself to help keep the company going, i can start arranging my schedule to make allowances for my new shifts in focus. slowly but surely i want to spend 75% of my life out of survival mode and in a state of freedom, where i can choose how i want to spend my time and my money.
i feel like i can now start making a plan. things are coming together - after the last few weeks when i realized that there might be a time in the somewhat near future when i won't have to be working *all* the time just to stay afloat...and that when that time comes i have no idea what i want to do with myself next. but things are falling into place for me since i put the notion out to myself and a few specific others that i need help formulating a plan for the next step. it's amazing how things come together to support you when you want them to.
yes. i believe in the law of attraction.
mood: ready for bed
listening to: 'livingston's gone to texas' jimmy buffett (if only you knew *all* the stuff i've heard while writing this - 6480 songs in itunes on random)
i've had a day or two now of not too many things coming in, which has given me some time to take care of some things that have been sitting on the back burner for quite a while. for some reason, that's when i feel like i've been most productive - when i haven't had my whole day dictated to me by new work. instead, i actually get some old work done. i finished 6 pages of the maintenance manual this evening, which is quickly climbing up the ladder of necessity to wave at my attention. i've had quite a bit of time by myself at the office, which has helped too except for the whole having to answer the phone part.
i am waiting to go out dancing tonight at least. two nights in a row - maybe three by the time tomorrow gets here. i have a mixer for work tomorrow evening, so we'll see.
i know that next week things will explode again with end and beginning of the month work stuff, so i guess i'm savoring these few days mid-month all the more.
as a side note, i've been testing actionwords over the past few days. so far, i've been really impressed. i feel like i'm just scraping the surface of the extent of it, but i'm such a keyboard kinda girl that i've really enjoyed being open to open firefox by just typing cnrl-space-ff. yay-no-more-mouse. or at least yay-a-lot-less-mouse. i've started to plunk down the money for it a couple of times today, but i've gotten distracted. i'm looking forward to putting it on the computer where i do most of my work stuffs. then i can quit typing cambridge management group, inc. so many times. :)
it's quarter to 10 and i acutally feel like i have a few moments to myself. to breathe. calmly.
these last few months have been a crazy kind of roller coaster. a good kind, but totally crazy. i have no regrets about starting my own company, but i haven't had time to myself in a long time. i've been working 12 hour days pretty regularly, plus time on the weekends. this month we've all dedicated saturdays to long-range planning, which leaves me sundays to catch up on housework and take some downtime - sometimes in that order, sometimes not. g's been sick the last few weeks, so a lot's been left up to me...and not gotten done.
watching episodes of dog whisperer last night has inspired me to put in some extra time with kalvin. he's been getting away with a lot, though he really is a good dog. we went for a walk this morning for about 15 minutes. thankfully, he still remembers how to walk properly on a leash. (or at least he remembered after a minute or two.) he's gotten really spoiled about having a backyard to be turned out into sans constant supervision. now to work on him jumping up on company.
i've also been trying to control what little of my life that i can - mostly through reinstating the 'getting things done' philosophy. it's something i've been following for quite a while, but never too deeply. mostly i've used it to just keep the 'widget cranking' parts of my to-do list under control. now i'm finding the need to work on the higher elevations of my life - from 'why am i here?' to 'what project does this widget-cranking-item belong to?' being the owner of a company will do that for you i guess. that and discovering that i seem to be the only one who hasn't thought about the possibility that i might not *have* to work 40 hours a week in 5-10 years. i could actually...do something different with my time! i guess i had just resigned myself to the thought that i would have my nose to the grindstone until i retired. then again, i've never been one who likes to sit idle. that's what's been occupying my thoughts lately - what do i want to do when i grow up? ;)
but back to widget cranking - it sure is nice to have a very clean bathroom, kitchen, and living room, and a fresh batch of homemade chocolate chip cookies to boot. (we'll see how long that lasts - mom and sister usually put quite a dent in those.) maybe i'll go to bed early too.
mood: peaceful and somewhat sleepy
listening to: sean watkins: blinders on