it's quarter to 10 and i acutally feel like i have a few moments to myself. to breathe. calmly.
these last few months have been a crazy kind of roller coaster. a good kind, but totally crazy. i have no regrets about starting my own company, but i haven't had time to myself in a long time. i've been working 12 hour days pretty regularly, plus time on the weekends. this month we've all dedicated saturdays to long-range planning, which leaves me sundays to catch up on housework and take some downtime - sometimes in that order, sometimes not. g's been sick the last few weeks, so a lot's been left up to me...and not gotten done.
watching episodes of dog whisperer last night has inspired me to put in some extra time with kalvin. he's been getting away with a lot, though he really is a good dog. we went for a walk this morning for about 15 minutes. thankfully, he still remembers how to walk properly on a leash. (or at least he remembered after a minute or two.) he's gotten really spoiled about having a backyard to be turned out into sans constant supervision. now to work on him jumping up on company.
i've also been trying to control what little of my life that i can - mostly through reinstating the 'getting things done' philosophy. it's something i've been following for quite a while, but never too deeply. mostly i've used it to just keep the 'widget cranking' parts of my to-do list under control. now i'm finding the need to work on the higher elevations of my life - from 'why am i here?' to 'what project does this widget-cranking-item belong to?' being the owner of a company will do that for you i guess. that and discovering that i seem to be the only one who hasn't thought about the possibility that i might not *have* to work 40 hours a week in 5-10 years. i could actually...do something different with my time! i guess i had just resigned myself to the thought that i would have my nose to the grindstone until i retired. then again, i've never been one who likes to sit idle. that's what's been occupying my thoughts lately - what do i want to do when i grow up? ;)
but back to widget cranking - it sure is nice to have a very clean bathroom, kitchen, and living room, and a fresh batch of homemade chocolate chip cookies to boot. (we'll see how long that lasts - mom and sister usually put quite a dent in those.) maybe i'll go to bed early too.
mood: peaceful and somewhat sleepy
listening to: sean watkins: blinders on